Well here I am looking forwards

[ATPeace]

At the moment it looks like my W is going to be totally fair perhaps more than fair as strange as this is I still love her and love my children all she is sking for is half the value of the house my two young children for now will live with her I will see them regularly my two older children will life with me and will either come with me to see mum and siblings or mum has the choice to bring the younger ones to see me

I need to put some space between my W and I if I was living on her doorstep then I know I would find it incredibly difficult to move on I would be forever passing her house or trying to make excuses to see her and the children so as hard as this is I am making a decision to move about 180 miles away. I will be close to my sister and my elderly mother this will bring me some comfort and some support

I pray that I can keep a good relationship with my younger children I hate my wife for making her decision but she has some very deep feelings that throughout our marriage I had set out to abuse her and cause her upset these are sadly her feelings and I cannot change them. She has used words to me such a coerced her she said I groomed her this is utter rubbish I loved her,we met when she was very young I was her escape vessel from abuse at home we fell in love I was older than her but had not had any other partners no girlfriends at all so was inexperienced and loved her for being the first girl to love me

We were together for over 25 years so I did not set out to have my way with a then child as she is now pointing out we had a life time together

Time to be happy in my own skin time to think of me and my children I will love my W she may do further things to break my heart some more but I feel a sence of relieve for letting go

I do not want to divorce but that is hanging on I must truly let her go

Ghost