What are you doing for yourself? It's time to take care of you and focus on what is going to make you happy outside of H.
I know you miss your H, I understand that completely. You can not control what is going on with him, but you can start to take control of what's happening with you. GAL. This has been extremely helpful to me.
Like everyone else is saying, keep reading and posting here. I think you will find it helpful to share with people who truly understand what you are going through. You are not alone.
M:41 H:43 T:26yrs M:19 yrs S:15 D1:14 D2:9 Living together but separated