I haven't posted on my own thread for a long long time.
That's because I have a high conflict D and very terrible time.
My D is going to trial and I am in deep trouble. Never mind, that's life.
Nine months of marriage to S and the Giggalo wants big lumps of cash. Big big lumps, he has needs.
It has always been my policy here to be completely open.
I am coping poorly, I skeep little and I work 90 to 100 hours a week.
I am exhausted and really distressed.
The Fin paperwork revealed the Giggalo excesses, he lives in Italy with an ex stripper of Russian extraction! You really can't make this stuff up.
Sorry exotic dancer!
So so sad and so wasteful. He took lumps from his pension and spent it on hotels, gambling, meals and other rubbish.
He has a fake L with no qualifications at all and a Walter Mitton attitude.
In a very V way I am studying high conflict divorces. I intend in a few months to have an extension of the abuse threads on high conflict divorce.
Dear DB friends abuse doesn't stop just because you are NC and D. As long as the abuser has any controlling items they will abuse you further.
The costs are crippling me in this D.
However I am just coping, how I am unsure but I am. Really it's a miracle how I keep coping. I spend no money at all other than that which is essential.
How long I can keep going I am unsure, but its been like this for nearly two years. Knife edge all the time, but I get there!
It must turn around all this effort. It must.
V
Freedom is just another word for nothing left to loose. V 64, WAW
