Well, I made it through the weekend. Sat. went to shower and out. Got home really late. Sun. slept in, H came in (we said hi across rooms), he laid down in our room. I went to lunch w/friend and to her house to scrap.
Went home. H didn't come home until 9something. I went in to ask about where some pics were taken (yes, a ploy). I asked if he wanted to hug. he said sure. so, we hugged and talked a few. i said, "well, i'll get out of your space." He just shrugged. I inquired about the shrug. He told me this is hard. I asked which part? he said all of it. I told him that I missed him.
For some reason i started to chew on his leg. He said i was being how he wanted me to be all the time. (Then he said, "well, most of the time." I said, "what's diff.?" he said he couldn't put his finger on it. I said that this has been a serious kick in the butt. so, i start nibbling on him and stuff. he said he didn't want me to get the wrong idea. i said, "what's that?" he said, "that everything is going to be turned around b/c of this." I said that we could go back to being broken up after. he laffed. He asked if he could ask me a Q. I said sure. He said, "you said you had something to wear for our anniv. What was it?" I said, "do you want to hear about it or see it?" He said either. So, I got up and told him to find a certain song that I had on the CD player and went to put on my outfit! I called him into the hallway where it is dark, but could still see some, and the rest was history.
Started to fall asleep on his shoulder, but got up. Went to the bathroon, then went to my room. He came in and gave me a really nice hug and went back to our room.
This morn. I hugged/kissed him goodbye. He is taking the day off.
I plan on just going along as we have. Will he ever come after me???
He has made a couple comments during this which are hard for me to decipher. At the beginning of this he said it was hard b/c he was used to having companionship w/"somebody." (Like you mean ME???). Then last night he said he'd been getting really horny. I did ask "for anyone?" He said no. (But didn't say ME). He didn't come right out and say that he is missing me, but just that this is hard. ?? I figure he's not going to come right out and be mushy gushy right now...which is my goal...eventually.
Supposed to bike w/friend tonight, but i really think i should take dogs to park. I haven't spent any time with them since last weekend.
