My W texted yesterday “taxes are filed.” I replied with “great, please email copy” surprise surprise no email. This really ticks me off. Last time I saw her in Nov, I told her I needed taxes from last year for some school stuff and she quickly jumped on the desktop to delete files and told me she’d email them to me. (she knows I need them for school, she even expressed some frustration that the school hasn’t gotten it together) So I agreed. Stupid. Well I logged into the IRS website and I can get copies there. However, I don’t understand why in the world she would ignore my request, its NOT that hard. Hit email. I don’t get why. That’s a jerk-ish move. We never talk and then she pulls this crap. It’s annoying and I’m done with her sh!t. For someone who claims I’m the love of her life, she’s got a screwed way of showing it. At any rate, I’m not going to text her to ask for it. I won’t show frustration, just go about my way and figure things out myself. I don’t need her. And frankly, this crappy person, I don’t want her either. I’m starting to have thoughts along the lines of “I hope she has a really crappy Vday” I don’t like them, for my sake, but I do catch myself thinking things along those lines quite frequently.
LT, thank you for the kind words and encouragement. I truly appreciate you swinging by my thread. Running is going really well. I have a 10k race this Saturday. Trying to figure out what I’ll do with my car keys, since I won’t have anyone with me. (first time for everything) Anyway, I’m on track to shave off 10mins from my last 10k. & I'm well on my way to my half marathon this April. It [censored] not seeing my D but I think like everything, time heals all wounds. I’m preparing my self to mail out a box of the last of her things. I had a pj we bought for her for when she came to spend the night at my place. Only happened twice though. And a couple other gifts I got her in Mexico. Along with some letters I wrote to her when her Birth father wouldn’t let me talk to her either. In hindsight, I should’ve known my W would eventually keep D from me, since she was OK with Birth father keeping her from me. That should’ve told me everything I needed to know, but as always one is hopeful. I think reaching out to D is not wise. I fear I will get emotionally sucked back into the roller coaster. And frankly, I’m quite ok with out them. I hope D is truly doing better. D has some major issues, I hope W has put her in IC for D’s sake. I would like to think that D is no longer having a hard time with my absence (D’s teacher last year was the only non-biased person that really gave me insight to how hard it had been on D)But I don’t think I’ll never know, as I don’t see my W admitting other wise, and I don’t see a future with them.
About it for my side of the screen. In a good place. Trying to keep negative thoughts out of my head, such as wishing my W not well, and thinking I’m doing too well and waiting for the other shoe to drop again. On my head.
