Coly - I have no good advice for you other than to let you know that what you are feeling is perfectly normal and understandable.
((Coly))
You're doing great sweetie.
On BD H52, W50 T27, M26 S21, D23 BD-9-Mar-16 D-15-Jan-18 Final-19-Apr-18 I am a storyteller. The story may do you no good. But a story is never for the listener. It is always for the one who tells