Cherry. Getting on with a few bumps

[Cherry]

Oh guys, thank you so much. I think it's honestly a case of you just don't know how you cope til you're doing it, just like the rest of this process. We are all here just taking tiny steps forward. And what's kept me focussed is my determination to be able to provide for my children. I've kept working for as long as possible to make sure I can make the most of my leave and save it for once baby is here, despite having chronic sickness that I've been hospitalised for throughout.

Skm, it's a hard pill to swallow isn't it, but I think it's a thing most of us feel. It's almost impossible to think of this person who once would do anything for us and loved every bit of us can turn into a complete stranger. I guess I got myself to a place that his ignoring me just didn't bother me, then he shows interest, and if nothing else I think well at least we can be friendly and civil for the children- then he shuts me out again. And it's frustrating, annoying and possibly even upsetting too. But I'll return back to my stance of not rising to it. Whatever it is is clearly his issue, and he's still oh so foggy. So I shall just continue on to do the best I can. I won't match his behaviour, I don't rant- I just leave him to it and get by doing my own thing. This way I'm doing what's best for me and best for the children.