Thank you Zues and Rouky. I am having trouble coping with having to deal with failed expectations. I felt that because i worked hard, and played by the rules, and made choices based on logic and thought, that life would play out more favorably.
All we need to know in life is what we learned in Kindergarten..."You get what you get and you don't get upset" Truly not an easy lesson. I am as frustrated now as my son was when he didnt get the color paper he wanted!
Rouky, you have described me perfectly. "programmed by negativity and my brain cant deal with positivity" I find something to fear or ruminate on no matter what!
My nice thing to say to me would be "You are a great mom. Your son is lucky and will never know how lucky he is. You have been nothing but patient with him, when others would not have been. You continue to push for him in every way. You are and will continue to be a really great advocate for him. You always put him first and his best interests are what drives you."
