I just want to reach out through the screen and give you a big hug. You are going through something so unimaginably painful and difficult that I think only your young age and energy helps you manage it so amazingly.
My very best wishes for an easy birth and a lovely baby that will fill some of the emptiness I'm sure you feel.
And my heart breaks for your little son.
M 16 yrs, WH62, P54 3 adult blended kids EA 11/13, BD1 6/14 PA fall 14, BD2 2/15 Piecing 2015, BD3 12/15 Separated 4/16 WH moved OW in 5/16 Divorced 6/15/17