I feel so iffy right now. I feel like being done with this as in getting a divorce. But, I know I really don't want that. It's so hard for me to DB!!! I am a horrible actress! I need to be less available and more nonchalant, and do more of my own thing, including things that are fun for ME.
I am even reluctant to cycle with H and his friend Mark. I guess Mark is "OK" with me being around. Gee, thanks. I feel like I have to prove myself to these ppl and H and that feels really rotten. Then, on the other hand, I really don't care what the others think, but hope that h will continue to think on his own. Some of his friends (I don't know which) ask him why he puts up with me.
I need a new attitude. I really don't want to walk away, but I am thinking about it. He's really becoming a turd. Any suggestions?
