Working on a Trial Separation Agreement with MLC H

[ccgrrl]

Thanks, FightOn. Obviously, I don't have answers, but I do think that when I look back at my 23-year marriage, I don't see a "failed marriage." I don't see something I regret doing. I don't see something that was a mistake in any way, even as I have given up a lot for it. So, I guess, on an intellectual level, I understand that trusting someone like that again - someone worthy, of course - could possibly bring me another 23 years of joy, new experiences, and wonderful things I can't even imagine.

That being said, I am still in this relationship, so I am not really able to take that beyond that intellectual concept...In other words, I'm not emotionally ready to do another relationship and I can't really picture myself every doing that again, but that doesn't mean I (and you, too) won't feel differently if this relationship does actually end in D.

To tell the truth, right now I can't imagine my H coming back and us recommitting to the relationship. I can't imagine having a new relationship. And I can't imagine ending our marriage with a divorce.

Welcome to my nightmare... living in limbo ;-}