You are doing great! I know this is exhausting to keep going so do try and take some breaks for yourself away from the situation--even if for a few hours.
I'm sorry about your W. Have you asked your W if she would like you to go with her? Have you read txhubby? I think the same thing happened to his W and it led to their R.
Gordie 40s W 40s M20+ kids 2016 BD W fantasy affair w OM1 I do everything wrong 2017 I start to DB W says TLTL files for D PA w OM2 2018 I do LRT W drops filing and OM2 situation slowly improving