Same Sitch. New Approach. Motivated. Feeling Good.

[Chris73]

Hi All. Just a quick post looking for some encouragement.

Things have been going well between my W and me. We had a good weekend with many friendly encounters. But I'm too eager to take this momentum as an indicator to push for more or go faster, and I know that would be a huge mistake. Meanwhile, it feels like months have passed since I started trying this new approach to my saving my marriage and yet it's only been a couple weeks and I'm exhausted! And despite having a long list of things to do that will distract me from my sitch, this morning I'm just not motivated to do any of it. I haven't slept well the past few nights and this is obviously contributing to my slump.

I'm also very worried about my W. A couple weeks ago she found a lump under her upper arm. Many years ago she had one in the same spot. A biopsy revealed it as benign and it was removed. Today she is going for an ultrasound to get more information on this new lump. I know she's really scared (as am I), and I'm trying to find the right way to support her through this.

This is really the hardest I've ever worked at something and I'm happy that I'm making progress. I guess it's just the Monday morning blues. I know I need to snap out of it, but I felt like venting and you folks on the board are my only outlet at the moment.