[BrightFuture]

FY, thank you for the feedback! It made me think...

No, I don't think H knows that I'm at the crossroads. He might feel it... and this is why he "checks in" with me periodically. The thing is, that I don't know why H keeps the contact and common stuff going. It just might be very convenient for him. Or, subconsciously he feels that he needs to do that... I don't think he is all the way out of the tunnel. I think he is still baking. Like job said numerous times that my H is a very slow MLCer.

I will try to play all the possible responses, like you suggested. But... for some reason I think that he would retreat deeper in the tunnel, if I would give him any indication that I am still standing for our M. I better be prepared for alternative steps, if I would tell him that. I'm not sure I'm ready...

I was sick again last week. My work schedule and this retuned sense of limbo is taking a toll on me.

I'm going to the vacation home place this weekend. I have company holiday next Monday, so I decided to take some time off and relax. I'm going to stay in my condo. I think H and some of his crazy friends (including that crazy woman) are going on a week long trip south, so there should be no distraction to my stay there. My mutual friends are expecting me, and my other friends are going to be there as well. I just hope for a good sunny weather.