I am so sorry. That talk with the kids is never, less than heartbreaking. I have thought many times over the months, that I wished I never married my W. Every time I had those thoughts, I would immediately think of my kids and realize that they would not be here if I didn't marry my wife.
I understand when you say that you regret ever getting married to your wife. Just remember that you were given the greatest gift you could have ever received because you married her and had those amazing kids.
We have to take something positive away from this, right?
Would you do anything for your kids? Would you go to the ends of the Earth for your kids? Would you die for your kids? Of course you would. So take them as your positive in all of this. You went through this hell for them. So that they could be born and exist today.
Again, I am really sorry that you have to go through this process. I know it brings out that white-hot anger sometimes. But at the end of the day, you have to just look at your precious kids and realize that it was all worth it. If you can think of nothing positive that came from your marriage...just look to your kids. You will see the answer in their faces.
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