Quote: I know I am not being patient. I just get so anxious and angry all wrapped up in one.
As painful as this is going to sound, my friend, you need to be patient. Go back to dbing basics, what are your baby goals, so that when you achieve baby steps, you can feel good, and have the energy to tackle the longer term bigger goals?
Quote: am going to a going away party after work for a little while. H may find something else to do if I want to stay there v. long. ??
OK, remember the discussion in Central Perk about crazymaking? Get tht rubberband, and start snapping. If you are going to have fun going out, do so. What H will or will not do should not interfere with your fun. Check out Betseys approach - she is pursuing mystery as a serious occupation