I do feel financially trapped jelly. I am unhappy with my living arrangement. And I don't feel like there is a way out.
I cannot move to an affordable area unless STBX moves. And even if I could, I would need help with babysitting. With The amount of sick days and vacation days and half days needed, I would have been fired a long time ago if it weren't for my parents.
My son needs lots of services. And that has to be a priority. I need free babysitting while I work and I get that here. But I am really unhappy and my parents are not living the retired life that they wanted either so there is tension.
I don't foresee any realistic way out. And I do feel stuck in a perpetual limbo.
I know others have it worse. I really feel that having my own place would improve my life by 100% though.
Most of the time when I get upset with my ex, it's because of my living situation now. It is not because he ended things, things haven't really changed since he was never around anyway. ITs because right or wrong I blame him for my circumstances...not having a place of our own to live.
