I understand the fear and the hesitation. It took me many months just to start to try and realize that my W is not the same person anymore. You don't want to believe how bad it really is, you want to be positive and think they are just really grumpy, but they are temporarily someone else now.
GALing may not be about making your life better by taking up hobbies and getting back to happiness. GALing just might be about getting back to some peace of mind. Just find something you enjoy to take your mind off of him.
I know it seems like an impossible situation, but it's not. It's just your H is being impossible (and he doesn't see it). You are NOT obligated to follow him down whatever road he's on. Think of you and your S.
Yes, there's lots of fear and crying at first. Then we realize we're repeating ourselves and then we start to walk away from that loop. You're already recognizing the triggers within you. You are going to find out that you are MUCH stronger than you think.
Great advice I received when I first came on here - don't even think of taking it one day at a time. Take it a few hours at a time.
M: 49, W: 45 T: 22 M: 15 S14, S11, S9 BD: Jan '16 W files: Oct '16 D final: June '18
