She moved out, filed, but I'm still working Pt. 5

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You are doing great, no doubt about that. I like what I read in your last post. You have come on a long way. You have grown.

However I didn't like you thinking that you will be pinning and waiting after her for the next 25 years. I am glad you refrained from speaking like that to your kids. But you need to change that thinking. Maybe you will choose to stand for 25 years, though I have rarely read about such cases. You honestly don't know how you will feel next month or next year.

Pinning and waiting belittle you. Your thinking shows through in your actions behaviours and attitudes. You can try hide it from the world but that rarely succeeds for long. Better to change your thinking.

I am not saying don't stand nor wait. I am pro M and that is not my point. You need to get to a point where your life is full and rich without W. She needs to know you are living and thriving without her. Turnarounds rarely occur on this site before the LBS starts truly living for themselves without looking over their shoulder to see if WAS may be becoming interested.

But more importantly than it improving your chances of turning things around it will be better for you. Otherwise life will be an empty fake grind. Fake it until you make it but you have to move forward to actually make it.

Maybe you need to close that chapter of your life. Accept it is over. Accept where you are at and just be. No need to explain the how or the why. She has left and you are enjoying life as much as you can. Forget that you are standing and start living. The fact you are standing is irrelevant for now and only relevant if she ever comes back.

I am glad you have your faith. It must really be a comfort.

Best wishes