Have been really busy lately. Th. had din w/h, fri. went to concert w/gf's, sat. picked up our bikes out of layaway , helped my mom in her yard, went out to din w/h and to meet group of friends at a bar. This morn. we were supposed to go for a group ride, but it is raining a lot, so we went out to bfast. He went to hang w/his friend today.
OK!!! 12 days of NOOOO crazypmaking!! I am really paying attn. to when I want to and why. The usual answers I come up with are that I am bored, that I don't feel "connected," and that I want attn. I have been feeling somewhat detached. Not hearing WOA hurts? Sometimes it saddens me to ML and not hear some compliment or ILY. He does say ILY back when I do, or if I say I had fun tonight, he agrees. I think I do pretty well as far as thanking him for taking me out, folding laundry, etc.
Huge +++ Again, I have gone out with him and this group of friends that I used to get really jealous around. I did NOT get jealous. Then they all left except for H's 2 close friends. (One has avoided doing stuff with h when I am around b/c he couldn't handle the drama/me having issues.) But, I have now gone out with them a few times and to a few parties over several months WITHOUT getting upset over something!
Also, I have been trying to not read into comments that h makes. I'm really good at picking out the worst and over-analyzing it, then accusing him of something, etc.
I also would like more sex, but I figure that that will come with time when we both feel more emotionally connected. I'm still doing a lot of initiating, but I just can't help it! Yesterday morn. I made a comment about his body that hurt his feelings a little. I didn't mean to! I guess I should realize that he IS sensitive about his body. I just think of him as such a pillar of strength, that I don't think I will hurt his feelings by joking around about things.
I have had some bouts of feeling emotional/feeling like crying, but I'll just ask him for an extra hug or snuggles. He's v. good about that!
Wish me luck on continuing this good path! I hope I didn't just jinx myself. karen812
, helped my mom in her yard, went out to din w/h and to meet group of friends at a bar. This morn. we were supposed to go for a group ride, but it is raining a lot, so we went out to bfast. He went to hang w/his friend today. 
