Looking back at what I've written I can see how foolish I am being - everything he's said is all lies.
Once when I was pressuring him about what the OW thought was going on, he snapped and told me "I have a knack of knowing what people want to hear. So I give it to them. In a way, I prey on it." Those last words, "prey on it", are ad verbatim, 100% his. I remember being really shocked. Married for 13 years and this was the first time I'd seen the mask slip. It was too much to handle so I let it go, didn't look at this unmasked face. I was at the time desperate to save the marriage.
When I look at him I see the sweet loving boy I married 13 years ago. I need to remember that's just the outside. The packaging hides something much different.
I'm so sorry, 2016.
It's often during these times that the true colors come out. I'm right there with you. My ex's colors came out at the craziest of times. We all have done things trying to save our marriages that we thought made us look foolish. In reality, we didn't look foolish although its easier to say we did. We all fought to keep and hold onto the dream we had. We all strangled that butterfly in hopes of getting it to stay.
You are doing much better than I was at your stage. 16, this is your time to walk your road. You'll find the clouds will start to part and the sun will shine - and that your road is paved with gold. However, only you can own it. So own it.
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There are moments in this life when you are so confident in the rightness of your actions, that not even for a second do you consider the option that you might be wrong.
