First of all, it's o.k. You're venting here, which is good.
Secondly, I think you are assuming too much. He's not interested? He's being sarcastic? Are you SURE about this, or are you putting your own perceptions on him???
PLEASE get rid of the guilt for doing just what he told you to do! I had a problem like this. My H wanted me to spend money on myself. I couldn't bring myself to do it! I felt like I was doing evryone a favor if I spent on them, not me. I thought he should be happy if I was saving money! Not so. I MADE myself start spending on me. He's as happy as anything! (and I look tons better!) Karen, your H is telling you what he wants. Listen.
The talking will come, in time. Ease up a bit. You're going thru a lot right now. Let's work on trying to not be a crazymaker anymore first. The rest will come...really!
