WAW had an affair - hurt and confused

[Gordie]

So what are your big goals in life? What do you dream about (outside of M)? What is the meaning of life? Is there a God? You don't have to answer here, but it seems like one of your issues is knowing what you think about the big issues, being in touch with them, and being able to share them with others. Outside of M, it seems like the best place to share these things is in some some of religious or non religious community where people discuss these things. Is there a venue in your life for this to happen? A best friend with whom you share your interior life (not your W)?