What does everyone do when you really just want to talk to the walkaway wife?

Ive been good the past days, but suddenly i just want to talk and have her explain what shes feeling and if she's still wanting to throw away our marriage and family.

M:39 W:36 - D1:2 D2:6
11/19/16 BD1: ILYBNILWY, EA/PA
Dec/Jan: MC, pursuing, not DBing
1/11/17 BD2: W wants 1 month break
2/1/17: Divorce Remedy. Start DBing
2/17/17 BD3: W - separation to start D process