My marital woes taught me that, even in the worst of circumstances, I can choose to be happy and move forward with the confidence that I won't fall apart the minute that things don't go as I'd planned or expected. And, sometimes not getting what I want is for the better.
^This
I know now that Im a lot more resilient than I ever would have given myself credit for.
That said, I hate the way I acted in the 1-2 months pre and post BD. I will never be THAT person again. Whiny, clingy, needy, obsessive. It was a total clown-show. If my ex wasnt walking out the door anyway, my behavior would have been the final straw anyway.
It's those times I think back and wish I had more courage, more strength, and more self-respect. That is certainly not me; I will never be that person again.
