It may feel like you are controlling it but he isn't really doing what you want, so I'm thinking it isn't really being in control. It is a need to drop TRYING to be in control.

I keep fighting with it myself. Having Jonah and NOT being able to do anything is giving me a good lesson.

I can't do anything to make Jonah well, and that is sort of like I can't make CHL do anything. It is a lesson I keep having to remind myself of, daily, hourly, maybe minutely!

Pam

"We must be willing to let go of the life we had planned
so as to have the life that is waiting for us"