Keep Wearing Wedding Band? [Thread #8]

[ForGump]

Last night for the first time, at home, I found myself thinking, "I don't want to be here anymore."

It's partly fatigue, partly my own DB, partly my W's efforts to detach from me (her emotional disconnection from me), her MLC behaviors that I disrespect, and partly that I've looked at some places to move to and that gives me some forward-looking hope.

I still feel schizophrenic in that what I wish for myself is vastly different than what I wish for my kids. They don't yet know and I think I'd give my life to spare them the pain.