As you all know, I can be extremely hard on myself. And I have been so hard on myself for still missing him this much. I am embarrassed about it. with my ex, I was so friggin angry at him. Just mad. I was the worst DB'er and I hated him for being the one to cheat and leave. I wanted him to suffer. I didn't even really want to be with him after that. So for the first time I am actually loving someone while letting go. I'll tell you, it is no easy feat. It's one of the hardest things I have ever done.
I'm just as hard on myself as you are. I've let go as much as I can. I also wanted her to suffer, and then felt bad when she did. I carried a lot of unnecessary guilt over the death of our marriage...and to some extent, even though I know better, I still do. I can't fix her. I'm not quite sure what led to me contacting her yesterday, but I did. And I beat myself up for it, too. Ugh.
Keep your chin up! Your road is paved with gold. Own it.
There are moments in this life when you are so confident in the rightness of your actions, that not even for a second do you consider the option that you might be wrong.
