Still alive. My divorce does not look busted, but most important I do not feel busted (I am broke as H3LL TBH). STBXW and I met two Saturdays ago to come to a mutual agreement. We are planning to go to a mediator. Met for breakfast - She began crying almost as soon as we sat down, but caught herself. "I miss you, I love you, this does not have to be the end..." Read the cake recipe here before. She did surprise me with two tickets to a local rope course with zip lines - a passion of mine she had never done w me. We finished and went to the course. Were having fun actually, she got to the second obstacle, she got scared of the heights (about 40' up). Perhaps my years as a tree climber, the fear of height just doesn't exist. Rescue is too strong of a word, but for lack of a better on, I had to rescue her by talking her out of that sht. Since we had not used up all the time, we hiked through the trails to kill the rest of it. She gave me $20 towards the $50.00 babysitter bill.

So that was two weeks ago, i felt good about it, in a closure way. Last weekend I had my S5 and he simply would not shut the h3ll up about her OM. To make it short, believe me I did everything I could to stop him, to include leaving the room multiple times. Finally I called her and told her I was not calling to attack, she just had to speak with him and tell him her business is her business and he should not speak about it. She went into expected defense and accusations about who I was. Finally I told her that if she did not want difficult conversations, she should have not introduced our S5 to this stereotype of mediocrity. She huffed and admitted he was a mediocre stereotype. I just said i had to go.

Ohhhhh!- did you actually guess that since that day she has been exceptionally nice to me, overly apologetic, somewhat helpful even? Wait, how did you know?


"There is no more important fight than the one for ourselves. Keep on winning." Ginger1, Read her newbies.
BD: Feb '16
D: Mar '17
Piecing: Putting the self back together was my piecing.
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