Gordie: Pulling it all together 2

[Gordie]

Be careful with the sleeping pills. You don't want to get hooked. I only have a shot on the days when I am really wanting one, not everyday.

This experience is certainly trying on the faith. So many unanswered prayers. I've been reading Psalms and suggest you read Psalm 13. We pray so fervently for God to act now and our timeline but it doesn't work that way. I'm doing everything to draw closer to God in this dark moment, asking God to increase the tiny seed of faith that I have. I'm certain that this is one of the purposes of this trial, to deepen my faith. I was coasting in my marriage, parenting, friends, faith, etc. and God is shaking me up!

I do some joyrnaling but I should do more.