10 months since she said i dont love you (5)

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Valentines day and anniversary in March coming up. Its almost 12 months since ILYBINILWY.

Looking back Im amazed at the journey i've had. Hitting absolute rock bottom, there was some really really dark moments there where i thought i couldn't continue. Thankfully i've crawled out of that space and now feel am coasting.

S5 is staying with me full time now and i'm busy re-painting his bedroom preparing for his custome batmobile bed to arrive and converted some old wardrobes and drawers into batman theme as well as made a batman toy chest out of recycled furniture.

Interaction with her has been smooth when it does happen. We dont communicate often except for logistics and giving updates
on S5. I have no expectations anymore thankfully.

Would never have guessed i'd be here but i am. My tip for anyone if any is to stop fixating on the end goal (divorce or together) it will drive you crazy like it did me. Focus on yourself and living in the now.