ForGump,
I think if I did 6 months of reconciliation and my spouse did what your's did I would feel the same.

Cherry,
I am doing my darndest not to lose ground this time with reactivity. Good to see you around, I think about you a lot and wish I was there to be a physical presence and support.

Tonight WH and I took the kids out to eat. I made sure to dress to the nines and WH was constantly complimenting me. At one point he stopped eating and stared at me for a second and then said, "I am feeling so lucky right now. I have this beautiful family, this beautiful wife, thank you Sara." I smiled very warmly and thanked him back. I said, "I am glad you are my husband." He looked almost bashful and then got very serious and said, "Please tell me immediately if you see me making a mistake or doing/saying something wrong." I knew what he was implying and gently told him I would.

M 10yrs T 13yrs
BD #1Oct 2015-PA between WAH and COW
BD #2 April 2016-WH resumed PA, she broke it off
Jan 2 2017 WH says he wants divorce
April '17-Letting go
2018 D busted
DD8, DS6, DS3