Hey Coly, thanks for the welcome. I'm glad I found this forum; I think it's going to be the lifeline to keep me strong. You're right - pretty much everyone assumes it's over and I should plan for a different future. I'm just not ready to consider that yet.
OW is getting divorced. She has no kids. Her hobbies and interests are identical to mine, except no kids, no baggage. She has already moved into an apt and they are selling their home. I'm fairly certain the feelings are reciprocated. I know her and she's a "hang all over and flirt with the guys" type. Something someone with a vulnerable ego would be susceptible to, no doubt. H in his right mind would see her coming a mile away, but I try to remember this is a different him.
I've been reading a lot today and have saved quite a few links to review again in the future. My situation has so many similarities with others here; I really feel like I'm in the right place to get through this.
I'm hoping his attorney doesn't squawk too much about the agreement. H and I kind of mapped it out together so there aren't any surprises. I really don't want to do anything permanent beyond that. Keeping communication to a minimum and trying to focus on something other than him. The rewriting of our history together is actually harder to bear than the idea of the OW.
Me : 42 Him : 43 M : 18, T : 19 D13, D11 4/16 1st BD (ILYB) 11/16 H wants s, moves out of br 1/17 H rents house & moves out 2/17 OW (he denies PA but EA last winter) 5/17 I filed for D 7/17 D Final