I tried to be as well rounded in this as possible to show that I have many faults in it too.. this may have been too descriptive and I can subdue it if need.. just let me know..
How do I move forward other than working on myself for my kids? I have been trying to do the 180, but the limiting communication thing just seems like it has been counterproductive with how she acts now that she has moved out and we havent talked hardly.. I have learned how to do ALOT for my daughter and my son through this that I never thought I could or would before so that has been great! Ive been more relaxed with work and things at home as well as more patient with our children and others.. I read more now and have taken interest in old hobbies as well as am getting back to going to the gym regularly..
I did remove my wedding band the other day due to me feeling there is nothing left of our old M after seeing that she continues to see the OM and that she is not wanting this separation to find herself like she told me.. She stopped wearing hers off and on while we were together after I came back from training to the point of she stopped wearing it all together weeks before she left.. That was a crushing blow to me as well.. and It still feels weird to me that I don't have it on anymore.. the ghost feelings are there and the sadness that its not there hits me often..
