Am I in withdrawal ... will he ever wake up

[Lana_71]

Hi exquisite ... I know what you are saying is true...I would have loved to bash him and tell him I am so happy he is not my father . Unfortunate for my kids although I always thought he could have been s great one. I see him stuck when communicating with them. He doesnot know how to maintain a conversation. Or even what interest them. The other question is it mlc? Definitely I saw the change in clothing he used to be sharp conservative then at 40 got red and orange pants , got a bike which he always wanted now he wear white pants and Fidora hat ... long hair which use to be very short. Drinking more . Values changed. Cynical Self absorbed, victimized all the time and very depressed workaholic . I am sure this is not the man I fell in love with.
I know I deserve better but don't feel I am ready yet to start again . But most probably I am ready to move on without him. Thanks for the words they make me stronger to stand up and move forward.