What you write about your ambivalence about R resonates with me. I posed the question to myself early on whether H would be able to love me the way I wanted, even as I change my approach and perspective. Though I'm here, DBing, I often feel that I'm Just kidding myself and that I actually fear being alone and losing my family more than losing my H.
Losing the family is the hardest part, I think. Especially when there is a lot of history. How long were you married?
Originally Posted By: forgump
2.5 years past the separation... you're not interested in meeting someone new who would be a good partner?
In my humble opinion, I think there is a difference between being interested and actively seeking something out. I'm definitely open to something good coming into my life, but I'm just not out there looking around corners to find it because so many other things are already consuming my time and attention.
