Never good enough

[ForGump]

I'm so sorry you got this news. I can imagine how painful it is to hear.

Listening to the fiancee telling me how perfect she is, basically all the things WH wants, just simply drives home my own imperfections.

She's not all that perfect if she's engaged to someone and is sleeping with someone else's husband with kids at home.

You've got loyalty and heart. You can't just put that on by getting a membership at the gym.

p.s. Re: child support -- there is absolutely no shame in getting child support and using it to support your household. I hope you'll talk to an accountant or a financial planner to figure out some options.