So I got home tonight and after the kids went to bed I spoke to my w and told her I didn't want to leave the marriage. I explained that I still love her and I wanted to be there as her husband to support her with her healing process. She said she was surprised as she's already started trying to come to terms with the end of our marriage. I told here that I still thought she should go interstate to see her family, but rather than using that time to decide if she has the energy to work on it, she should use the time to work on herself.
I also said that I thought neither of us were in the right headspace to make such a big decision like this and we should both work on ourselves first. She agreed, but also said she can't guarantee that she would come back without thinking about it and without making a decision. She also said she doesn't know how long she would be there for. She said anywhere from a month to 3 months, but she doesn't know. Part of me is worried that she won't come back at all even though she's said that she feels being in Sydney is her home. I know her family will be telling her to do what's right for her, but they'll probably be doing it while she's not in the right space and she'll decide to leave.
The feeling I got was that she doesn't want to be in the marriage. Her comments were more negative than positive, but she's still affectionate towards me. Still kissing and hugging me. I'm just very confused at the moment.
