Also to add, I do have DR that I am currently reading through. I have become more involved with my faith and continuely am going to Church and enjoying it! I have found a great very relaxed atmosphere church that my friends goto and my children love to goto also. I am trying to believe that God has a purpose for the pain and struggles that I am going through now its just tough to see them fully.. I'm just at the beginning stages of this process also.. I understand that I will go through a lot of the phases and will fall back many time as well..
I am trying to do the 180 method but it seems to currently have no effect on things.. When my W was in the home still she saw that I had changed and was more involved and appreciative as well as with talking and listening.. however she said that she could not believe it will last and felt that I was trying to make her out as the bad parent in this. When that NEVER will be the case. She is a great mother to our children, I knew what I needed to change with myself and was acting on it. I wanted my changes to stick and stay.. but I also knew that she was wanting out and that I would have to be doing a lot of the things on my own from that point forward so I needed to be doing them now..
