Continue posting as you go through the D. Even when you no longer want to DB, you can get a lot of good advice from fellow DBers that will help you grieve your marriage.

My MC said, teach your children how to grieve by providing them with the tools that help you.

So your job is to use your tools as you go through this process.

M 42 H 39
T10 (-2yrs separation)
S8 D5
DD 7/30/11 (EA&PA)
Reconciled 6/2013
Separation in works 1/2017