Last night I was asking CHL about how I'm doing with IM's, since I know he is so busy and he said all right most of the time. Once in a while I send too many. I said well I wish you would say something when I do, but I will leave it off the rest of the week.
He said you don't have to do that just don't swamp me. So I have left it on but NOT sent any messages today. He will need to contact me sometime today about finishing up taxes and I'm intending to let him make the first contact today since I know at some point he will have to do so!
I wish my memory was better. Somehow was discussing my emotions and I thanked him for being understanding that Monday I was still pretty upset and dealing with the loss of Jonah. He said I am doing better on not being emotional, but sometimes I still am. I thought I had been managing better, but at least he did say I am better and I am really focusing on being even better now that I know some of it is still getting through.
He was stressed over work and taxes but I really felt the evening went well, no cross words or anything. For us both to be a bit stressed and that to happen I thought was pretty darn good.
He did a little bit of joking around and teasing before he got to feeling really bad.
I wonder if that will be the last time I see him before the D? I know he is going to be real busy rest of this week and possibly next week as well.
Pam
"We must be willing to let go of the life we had planned so as to have the life that is waiting for us"
I said well I wish you would say something when I do, but I will leave it off the rest of the week. 
I thought I had been managing better, but at least he did say I am better and I am really focusing on being even better now that I know some of it is still getting through. 
