I am frustrated. I feel invalidated by everyone around me.
My ex for certain. But i gave up expecting anything more from him.
Now my parents... Who keep insisting that my son's issues are due to his stubborness and rebellious nature and because I do not invite friends over for him to play with. They are educated people. My mom was a teacher, and it is just so scary to me that they cannot comprehend that there is a neurological issue driving everything. They are his care givers and it is frustrating for me to be dependent on them.
They are so old school. I can even imagine my mother as a teacher insisting on her own disciplinary approach with some of her students that had similar issues. I wonder if this is why she is incapable of learning new approaches with my son? Guilt that she was doing it wrong?
I do need to invite friends over for him. My mom is right about that. But i am so so embarrassed by my situation and by my parents home. We live in a area that became more expensive over the years. Many of the people that live here have a lot of money. Truth be told, I am so embarrassed to have them see my parents home.
It is clean but disorganized and chaotic. Things go unfixed. They use lawn furniture in replace of living room furniture because of the cat. They do not care what others think and they don't even understand social norms. (My ex quite accurately described my parents as being from another planet. He was not exaggerating) It reflects and i do admire that about them. But at the same time these things do matter in the real world of social conventions/etiquette etc.
I know that none of this should matter. It would never matter to me as long as his friends were good people. But I know how people are and I do not want to be looked down upon. I feel like him and I are such outsiders already.
