It's not easy, brother. I think that you are doing great even if you don't think so. Even now, I have to fight back the tears every now and then - its shifted from the loss of my marriage and best friend to that of the kids. My son said something last night that just about sent me over the edge...I won't discuss it on here but it broke my heart. I'm tired of this heart breaking stuff and feel mine slowly turning to stone over time.
I'd have waited, too, if someone told me that. Well, most likely anyway.
Keep it up, my friend. We may disagree on here at times but I value your opinion and I feed off your strength.
There are moments in this life when you are so confident in the rightness of your actions, that not even for a second do you consider the option that you might be wrong.