Never good enough

[ForGump]

I too thought I accepted certain things... then something would happen and I'd feel like my heart is being ripped out again. Hurting takes time, a long time, and healing takes times, a long time. Sometimes I do feel like I could just lie down and not wake up. But those moments pass, and I remember what joy my kids bring me, and there are things I still want to do in this life -- not the least of which is to be with someone great again.

But yes, I feel beat up by life, and that heart just can't stop remembering all that it felt for my wife. I need a heart transplant to forget.