Keep Wearing Wedding Band? [Thread #7]

[ForGump]

Journaling:

I gave her the signed affidavit saying I got a copy of the petition.

She's been cordial but distant. I think I'm being distant too, but friendly.

For reasons I don't want to explain here, I'll be the one to move out after the divorce.

Suddenly it feels like my clock is ticking. So I looked at a few places today, and unexpectedly found a house that I really liked. So much so that I wished I could buy it. I put in an application to rent.

If that house works out, I could move there as early as mid-Feb. But I'll want a little time to get the house set up before bringing kids there. So early March is probably more likely. Will talk to our kids after I definitely have a place to move to.

The excitement of setting my new house buoyed my spirits at times. At other times, I felt like I had the flu.

I've been thinking forever about how we're going to tell our kids about the divorce. I think my older one (jr. high) will be sad but OK. The younger one (elementary school age) will be bewildered and sad.

Song in my head:

"Sometimes I wish that I could stop you from talking
when I hear the silly things that you say.
I think somebody better put out the big light,
cause I can't stand to see you this way."

(What can I say, I grew up in the late 70's, early 80's...)

I've also been thinking forever about how I'm going to break the news to my Mom (my Dad passed a few years ago). She doesn't know anything. She'll be utterly heartbroken for me.