Your fear of being alone sounds central to all of this. I'm hoping that you'll find living separated is a relief after the past year or so. Are you still seeing an IC (I hope so) and can you explore this are there perhaps?
T 13 M 7 Me 48 H 46 SS 15 BD 7.14 PA D final 5.16 (H filed)
We receive & we lose, and must try to achieve gratitude & embrace with whole hearts whatever of life that remains after the losses - Dubus
