I wish I had something to say that could help. I'm about a week to 10 days behind you in terms of getting served, FG, and waiting for it just plain [censored]. No sugarcoating it. That bit about her doodle -- my W likely wouldn't write it down where anyone could see it, but it is pretty much verbatim where her focus is.

I was struck by this quote:

Originally Posted By: ForGump
Today I found myself thinking about all the ways that she and I don't get along at times; I found myself thinking about how great it would be to be with someone more emotionally generous. I found wondering what it'd feel like to be loved again for who I am. Then I thought about how difficult that is, to find someone who loves you just the way you are.


If you can get to where you can trust (big ask, I know) and let go of all of what you've been through (another big ask, I know) and show women anything close to what you show here in terms of how your mind works, and your strength and constancy and huge heart, it won't be a matter of luck or chance. The most difficult thing will be wading through all of the women who will want to be with you. Believe it!


Me: 46
W: 44
Married: 17
Together 21
D13; S10
BD: 03.03.15 (Not attracted to you)
Almost 2 years trying, alone, to save marriage
Status now: Divorced (effective 06.13.17)