I am struggling again to get myself moving

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I am struggling again and I do not know if there is anyone that I can talk to

I feel physically sick at the thought of moving forward for the last Eighteen months since my wife has told me it was over not a day has passed that we have not chatted or interacted with each other I keep believing that I can do something that will fix something but then I realise that nothing is fixing anything

Today I have little work I could go to clear out my mothers house but that feels lonely doing it on my own I do not have close friends that I can call upon and just the thought of being there on my own upsets me

I could talk to my sister and my mum thy are my support network but I would rather be talking to my wife

I have to look for and apply for collage for my son in the country if I do not do this then he will not get offered a place

I am [censored] everything up big time and I will have nobody to blame except myself

I really do not know where to turn

It is not even about Love or my marriage it is about what to do for myself

Sorry to post here I just feel so alone