Logic verses Emotions, Aiming for Logic

[psluke]

I do think that being on the medication is doing you a world of good... however... in a lot of ways it's like putting a bandaid on things and waiting for them to go away.

Hi Cal,

Doing more thinking today. So if I have put a bandaid on it, it heals faster under a bandaid than if you do nothing, right?

While you may have a chemical imbalance and medication "cures" that, you've still got some serious underlying issues that your physician can do nothing about. I think we've said this before - your medication will balance you out but you can still feel depressed or happy. The reasons for your depression, negative thoughts, etc can't be fixed by medication or your physician. That is what counselors are for and you should be seeing one.

I know I gave you my pat answer on the C I saw not helping and I do think possibly if I saw the right C they could help me progress faster than I will on my own.

I also believe I have to be willing and ready to do the work and I feel I am there now. All along I have been able to see changes in me, even though CHL hasn't necessarily. But I have never consistently been able to really realize when I'm having ASSuming thoughts and stop myself, knowing they will only hurt me and possibly spray out onto CHL.

I have done that several times here in the past few days. I believe it is getting a bit easier to catch them and stop them. I'm sure the really strong ones are going to still be very difficult but absolutely I can tell I'm getting better.

You know I used to think I had serious problems, that something was bad wrong with me. But having seen and read that a lot of my actions are actions that others here on the bb have done and are working on changing. I actually no longer feel I have serious mental problems. I think I probably do have a chemical imbalance and I also think I never learned emotional control.

My thoughts on that are my grandmother had the chemical imbalance, my mom possibly does, either way my mom always lets all of her moods out very strongly, so that was what I believe I patterned myself after. I think what I really have to focus on now is seeing and realizing the thinking I do really affects my moods and that my thinking is very much based on my emotions.

You've seen this pattern or cycle over and over in your life and I think that is indication enough that there is something else going on inside YOU that needs to be addressed. I think counseling would do you so much good in addition to the medication.

I hope my response here doesn't look like a yes, but, answer, I have really given it a lot of thought as I have been working on catching and changing my thinking patterns.

I am not sure why I couldn't do it before. Maybe I did need for the medication to get to this level to enable me to control the emotions better. Maybe I had to face that my marriage was over or a combination of the two. I'm not sure of that, but I do know that I am controlling the emotional thinking much more now than I was before.