Dinner was fine. Which is sometimes weird that it was fine.
I feel nothing towards them. I feel like I shouldn't give them the pleasure of seeing I'm "fine" from all of this. But I am. As much as it is difficult to say sometimes, the 3 of us are our daughters family. Does it pinch me a little when OWW says "yeah, next weekend is OUR weekend" yup. But it used to send me into a blind rage, so I guess I'm better.
I had a beer and some wings, our daughter was happy to see her dad (if we didn't see them last night, it would have only been one night in two weeks she would have seen him). He paid with giftcards but he made sure I put in my portion of the tip. I think we were just raised differently. I live in the "I got it this time, you get it next time" and don't go for penny to penny. It's kind of funny, but I appreciated he at least let me share in their giftcards.
Thanks Zues. I have so much love for that kid it is indescribable. All of this is truly the last thing I envisioned when I was carrying her in my belly. But it was the life that was somehow meant for us, I guess. One thing she does know through all of this she is loved to no end. ANd the relationship D9 and I have is extremely close and I can only hope it always stays like this forever. I had such a fear of having this other woman in my daughter's life since the beginning of time and how it would affect our R as mother and daughter, but wow, we are tight as can be. We were out to dinner the last weekend and she said to me, "I love you so much mom, you make me feel so safe". I told her she makes me feel safe too. And it's the truth.
My dad and his wife are coming today and tomorrow we leave for our little getaway. We are going out to dinner with my stepmom's family tonight. Syrian food, yum!
This is my life as I know it. Never in a million years could I have predicted an ounce of this.
So I might have dinners like that to look forward to in the future...and events out together with the ex+bf at some point. I guess life changes and you adapt, the thought doesn't make me cringe like it has in the past. I still watch and wonder how they get to be happy and together but I don't care anymore sat the same time, I know the outside appearance is no indication of whats going on inside. Which is none of my business anyway.
The fact your putting your D first in that is nice even if they put you in the awkward position. Keep being the awesome woman and mom you are! Your daughter knows how great you are, you can see it in the pictures together.
Have fun at the waterpark, sounds awesome I cant wait for things to warm up so I can start doing more outside.
Accept what is, let go of what was, and have faith in what will be
So I might have dinners like that to look forward to in the future...and events out together with the ex+bf at some point. I guess life changes and you adapt, the thought doesn't make me cringe like it has in the past. I still watch and wonder how they get to be happy and together but I don't care anymore sat the same time, I know the outside appearance is no indication of whats going on inside. Which is none of my business anyway.
The fact your putting your D first in that is nice even if they put you in the awkward position. Keep being the awesome woman and mom you are! Your daughter knows how great you are, you can see it in the pictures together.
Have fun at the waterpark, sounds awesome I cant wait for things to warm up so I can start doing more outside.
Life changes and we adapt. Bingo! It may not change in a way we ever thought it would, but we do adapt. Your time may come for the event together, and I know you will handle it like a champ. Just be the amazing man and father you are. You can hold your head up high.
I have asked why they get to be happy. I honestly don't know how happy they are. But I realized I am happy. Do I want to bring a loving man into my happiness? Yes. My time will come when it does I guess. But remember, YOU are happy too! I have to say, I really believe the best is yet to come for you.
I can't wait until it gets nice out either. Everyone's moods go up and fresh air does so good for us. I began to get into hiking last year with D9. I can't wait to explore some more this year.
I am doing a run next Saturday in 20 degree weather. Lord help me! I am thankful for the beer expo I will be attending that night.
I haven't updated because there really is nothing to update.
Trip was great, kids had fun. It was a very nice resort and it was much needed.
Life is life right now. The one nice about no dating, no relationship is that my life is pretty much void of drama. I see what others are going through, and I don't have much desire for that part right now. I haven't opened up a single dating app. I am in large part just a bunch of routine right now. Tonight I am attending a ball, maybe I'll meet prince charming. Ha. Run on Friday, beer expo Friday night and absolutely nothing on Superbowl Sunday. I don't even have cable, so I won't even be watching. But football does nothing for me, and neither does the half time show. They stink every year. I'll write my last paper for this class which I have a 100% in so far, read, and watch some shows. And cook until I drop like always. And if I am not too hungover, a cycling class. I've been watching the HBO series "Divorce" interesting choice, huh?
There is my boring update. Back to my boring job, lol
Do you send food to poor, languishing divorcees that are unable to fend for themselves? I need some middle eastern food, but where I live, all we have is BBQ, Chinese and faux Italian food. I'm withering away...
Whoa now, sir. Don't go over the edge, sir. Done right, BBQ is life's blood.
There are moments in this life when you are so confident in the rightness of your actions, that not even for a second do you consider the option that you might be wrong.
Do you send food to poor, languishing divorcees that are unable to fend for themselves? I need some middle eastern food, but where I live, all we have is BBQ, Chinese and faux Italian food. I'm withering away...
I can make a deal for some good BBQ. I imagine your Chinese sux too, because no state does take out Chinese better than NJ
I cant wait for things to warm up so I can start doing more outside.